Wow. so much time has gone. and now…. this!

So, hi!  Yeah, I’ve been so far away from this blog for so long.  I have so many new things going on.  So much excitement, growth, energy…But, you see, I have this crazy notion in my brain.  This idea that I have to have separate places for different parts of my life.  Well, that stops here.  I have a zillion blogs, a zillion email addresses, a ga-zillion folders in each email address (I may exaggerate a tad).  I have always wanted work and life and hobbies and such separate but you know what, that makes life hard!  I need to simplify.  I need to get rid of the crap, the junk – both inside and outside of myself.

I’m reading a book called the the life-changing magic of tidying up.  It’s incredible.  It has my head spinning but the minute I go to start tidying up, my mess of a head gets into my way.  So, I am making a plan.  I am making change.  I am tidying up life all over the place.  My house, my head, my business, my kids, my closet, my car, my schedule, my planning, my prioritizing, my eating…yep, all of them.

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So you will see some changes to the blog coming in the near future.  This tidying up is also going to tighten things up and I cannot wait to unveil the new, improved Jennelle.  Seriously.  Get ready.  Are you ready?  Because I so am.  Hold on…get ready for a wild (and clean and organized) ride!

xoxo

Jb

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Times, they are a’changing

I have been so wrapped up in this new little life that is going to be joining us soon that I have neglected this blog completely.

What a crazy ride life has been the past 6-7 months…we have gone from worrying about weekend plans and home repairs to prepping the non-repaired home for a baby and how I’m going to get enough sleep with our weekend plans.  This pregnancy has taught me a lot about men and women (based completely on myself and my husband…not a large sample, I know).  Life for a pregnant woman changes immediately – she can no longer eat certain foods, drink certain drinks, play certain sports, ride certain rides at an amusement park or stay awake to certain hours of the night…and most importantly, she can no longer think selfishly about her body, sleep, life or time spent.  Life for the man of a pregnant woman doesn’t change immediately – he is still able to do all the things he has always been able to do without worry for the baby.  When we first became pregnant I struggled with these differences – I struggled with going to bed early or heading home before my husband from a bar or function because I didn’t want to miss out on anything.  I didn’t find it fair for him to not come home with me, to support me in this adventure – our adventure.  

My biggest mistake at the beginning was thinking so selfishly – that he wasn’t supporting me by coming home, not going to the river for a day with his friends, etc.  What I have since realized is that we are wired differently, we think differently and we always will.  God works in funny ways when he came up with the roles in life.  You see, as women, we have to be able to multi-task in our daily lives to handle work, the house, the kids and most importantly, our husbands.  This multi-tasking is what makes pregnancy both a gift and a challenge – when sick, the last thing you want to do is empty the dishwasher…however, knowing you can still take care of your husband and home and now this little person inside you allows you to relax, to realize that yes, I can do this.  We, as a family, will survive.  Sure there were times where I felt alone, where I felt overwhelmed and felt that he just didn’t get it.  Well…he didn’t, to no fault of his own.  His life hasn’t changed yet and God has given him nine months to prepare for the changes our lives will encounter.  He has been able to have “one last summer” of not having the responsibility of a child, one last birthday to celebrate with his friends and one last chance to get whatever he needs out of his system.  Please don’t get me wrong – he has been amazing this summer – he has said no to countless opportunities to go and hang out, go out on the boats, go away for the weekend, etc. in order to stay home with me and not leave me alone.  I am one of the lucky ones that has a man that can balance his lives – his friends, work, home, me, video games, football, soccer, etc, and put me first.  Once my belly really started to pop out I noticed it becoming more real for him – there really is a little person in there and his excitement grows in his eyes daily!  

My goal as his wife and mother of his child is to keep my head on straight – to balance our lives and not ever let him slip from my main priority.  It seems so easy to allow the kids to take over the number one priority spot – but then what?  They leave, they get a life of their own and then we are stuck with each other, not knowing each other anymore.  My husband is my life, my priority and my love and while I cannot wait to have his children, I also can’t wait to see the man he evolves into with the children – the man he evolves into with me, in our marriage, when we have this new element added into life.  

So, while life is changing for us both, life is not ending.  A new chapter is beginning and I look forward to writing our story together.  

 

Our baby boy…who kind of looks like Skeletor 🙂

 

The Power of Words

Cyber Bully on abcfamily. Watch it.  Pay attention.

Enough Said.

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Remember When…

I’m not THAT old and I haven’t been married for THAT long and yet I find myself falling into funks.  I was looking through some pictures today and found some that really sparked my insides.  I have been thinking a lot lately that I need a recharge.  I need to recharge myself so that I can recharge my relationship.  Oh gosh, don’t get me wrong…my husband and I are great, we always are, but I just sit back and remember the dating days when I had butterflies in my stomach driving to his place.  I remember the days where I wasn’t worried about how much work had to get done or what cleaning needed to take place, I just wanted to spend my time with him.  These days I find myself asleep on the couch, not working out because I just don’t feel like it, cleaning while he plays games, wanting to meet up with him later at a function because it seems silly to spend all day out when I should be doing other things.  What in my life is more important than us?  nothing.  Plain and simple – my house will be my house tomorrow, my laundry will still be there and I can sleep tomorrow.  What I can’t do is get back time I pass up, passion I keep inside and glances that go unnoticed.  The priorities in my life need to shift, and now.  

Here are a select few of the pictures I found today of the past four and a half years….

Random night on a visit to Arizona…

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Just got the marriage license!Image

Just got the ring!  The joy that day was overwhelming…

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Dancing with my Love…

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Just finished the largest accomplishment of my life…13.1 miles 

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The best mimosas ever…

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Just pure love…

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He always makes me laugh…and forget my insecurities…

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My favorite steps in Chicago…

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Day after the wedding…

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I’ve been served…

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Surrounded by friends, loving every moment.

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Facing a huge fear…on our honeymoon

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Still can’t believe sometimes that “T&J 2010” happened…

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I could look at him all day long

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love.

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St. Patrick’s Day without….Guinness?

The grocery store has never been my enemy.  Even recently, not being able to eat gluten, dairy or many other items lining the shelves in the grocery store, I embrace the challenge.  Until yesterday.

I ran into the store yesterday for a few items and I almost ran out….a literal run.  Right in front of me is a gigantic display for Guinness and Harp beer – the (un)official beer of St. Patrick’s Day.  Bummer.  I am a lover of all things Guinness…t-shirts, hats, cupcakes, roast beef, beer…love.  Yesterday, my love almost consumed me.  I was overwhelmed with the idea that the lovely taste of my beloved would never again cross my lips.  I hadn’t even thought of this until now!  Sure, I have to give up beer – but my mind goes to Miller Lite because that is what is normally drank around here.  There are those moments, however, when Guinness is the choice and those days I embraced warmly.  A beer snob I will happily be for a day….or once was.

So long, Guinness.  We were such good mates.  You always treated me well and I hope you feel the same.  If you have any friends of the “non-yeast and wheat” variety, please send them my way.  Image

The 28 day wrap – up

Well…it’s been 28 days since I gave myself this challenge of writing every day.  I didn’t complete it 100%…there were plenty of days that I missed but I Can say that those days I missed helped me realize something about my writing.  If I force it to come, it will not come well.  The days I wrote because I said I would were nothing much…just fleeting thoughts but I now know when to write.  The feeling that what is in my head needs to get out….so today, I can say that I will keep writing, will keep blogging and hopefully with every post, the writing comes more naturally.

The color of your life

It is amazing to me what hair color can do…simple dye on your head can change your look, your attitude and your energy.  I just got my hair done last night and went for a drastic change.  I Was either going to cut it or color it and I didn’t want to get rid of my length…so I colored it (Well, I had it professionally colored…I’m not brave enough to do it myself).  Anyhow…it is dark.  I love it, although I am not used to it yet and it seems strange when I look in the mirror.  I feel a little less like me than I did yesterday but I am sure that will come back once I am used to the color.  I’ve basically played with hair color my entire life, with the exception of the past five years.  The past five years I’ve basically gone from light blonde to now very dark.  Check out the progression….ImageImageImageImage

You want me to use baking soda for what?

face wash.

Yep, that’s right…face wash/mask.  I have been suffering from horrible adult acne breakouts lately and so I did some research on natural cleansing agents that could help.  Baking soda seems to be the main option, according to many sources on the web, and I’ve heard about it from a few people.  SO – while I don’t have any before and after pictures of my face (because who wants to see an ugly pimply face, anyway), it is working!  The past two nights and two mornings I have washed my face with baking soda and water and wow…what a difference it is making.  It’s not magic and my face isn’t clear overnight, but the new breakouts have stopped…the old breakouts are drying up and the redness is also going away.  I am going to continue using this for the rest of the week and assuming no irritation pops up, I may have my new, super cheap, face wash for life!  

I tell you what….diet changes and hormonal changes sure do affect the body in crazy ways!  Hopefully the baking soda continues to balance me out!  Image

The world of cyber bullying powerfully comes through my television

Last night’s Glee reminded me of why I am in education.  

The entire episode was packed full of amazingness from meeting Rachel’s dads, seeing Quinn’s turnabout and cliffhanger, Blain’s return, Kurt’s growth and David Karofsky’s heartbreak.  The link below is an interview with Max Adler, who plays Karofsky, and I couldn’t have put his storyline into words any better.  The show used grace and poise in the episode, in dealing with such a sensitive subject.  To see the effect of cyber-bullying is heartwrenching, but when we look deeper at Karofsky, we also realize that his downward spiral is also because of his guilt.  Knowing now the pain he caused Kurt seemed too much to bear and in combination of the social media world being aflutter about him…he saw no hope.  The scene of his attempt to end his life was beautifully acted and captured, with the voice of Blain (Darren Criss) in the background.  I really don’t think there is any way Glee could have done any better last night.  I cried for the entire hour, for so many people, for feeling so many emotions.  

 I hope people truly learn from last night’s episode and use it as a tool.  This episode can be shown to teach the effects of so many actions – bullying (face to face and cyber), texting while driving, young marriage, hard work, love, laughter and friendship.  Kudos, Glee, for attempting to reach society, young and old.  

 

Interview from eonline.com: http://www.eonline.com/news/watch_with_kristin/glees_max_adler_spills_on_one_of_series/295674

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